When I am looking for answers, many times I press the Google Earth icon
on my iPad. The rotating globe of the Earth flashes onto the iPad screen
as Earth becomes bigger. The program is defaulted to fly home. And
visually I am flying as the Earth rotates and zooms toward middle North
America. Blurry close up images become clearer as Google Earth slowly
stops the spinning and brings a clear focus about 300 feet above a place
out in the country. In Kansas. I am hovering over home.
The farm. Over 100 years in the Hunter family. Probably a transitory home
to roaming bison with the occasional arrowhead being found. And back
when Kansas was underwater in prehistoric times, definitely home to
large fish by the teeth and fossils found.
This Saturday, April 6, marks the end of home.
I have reasoned logically that this was the right thing to do. For my
parents especially the right thing to do. I had left the farm as a
young boy to become a preacher kid. I left the state of Kansas to go to
college. Partially motivated to go somewhere that no one knew me before.
I came back to Kansas for two short years at KU. Then I was gone again
and never came back as a resident; only a visitor.
But looking at maps, and eventually looking through Google Earth, at the
farm location always gave me rhythm, gave me cadence in life.
Sure I can continue to look. Saturday won't change the location nor the
landscape. But will looking at
it from above on Google Earth still be the same?
Not being there makes it difficult. But I know preparing for Saturday
hasn't been easy for my parents and my sisters. Moving, packing,
hauling. A lot of work. And a lot of Hunters have passed through this
land completing a lot of work. That is not easy to let go.
There are memories. But fading memories in many ways. Memories, though,
never drove me home. I went home in my mind because that's
where I am. I am from Kansas, in the country, finding my own solutions.
A book closes, a movie ends, but the past remains.
Update 4/12/13: It doesn't feel the same now looking through Google Earth or on the map.
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Some of the limestone walls from the old house remain in the current house. |
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The spring: giving forth water. |